couple more, y'all!

I feel myself growing in a good way...if you know me, you know I don't do well with change, but I'm learning that change can be good, and I can write my story in the new chapter without being consumed by being afraid.  Shit, I already am...and I'm not one to normally be proud of myself, but I am.  And I think it's good for me to say that to myself, so I'm going to keep saying that to myself.  If I start to be obnoxious about it, let me know.  :)

I think I'm interviewing better, because I have two call backs scheduled!  I giggled and did a dance when I hung up the phone each time.  The idea of dressing up and girling it for a little while is good, too.  :)  The shoes aren't fun, but I get to go on two more interviews!  :)

Carline, carline, laundry...applications, love from family, and home.  Chicken alfredo, pasta, and broccoli for dinner...and I have a smile on my face.  Don't tug on my cape.

who needs netflix?

Netflix, pizza, & p.j.'s with some of my best friends?  I did that tonight, and my sides still hurt from laughing so hard!  

We didn't even turn on Netflix...we started laughing & hugging right away, ordered pizza, laughed and hugged, behaved inappropriately, laughed and hugged, ate pizza, and watched reruns of "Big Bang Theory" while behaving inappropriately.  

Girlfriends are important...I think more important in some ways than romantic relationships.  These are the people I can tell anything to.  The ones that ride or die during the good times and the low times.  The ones that I can cry in front of, be silly in front of, laugh and snort in front of, share my pizza crusts with.  These are them.  The ones that love me no matter what...the ones that see me for who I am.  Have known me for so long that they know all of it.  And encourage and love and hug.  And I've learned as I'm getting to be a little older who I want to surround myself with.  I'm a lucky girl that they want to surround themselves with me...I always feel so encouraged, happy, and like I can do anything when I'm around my friends.  

To all my girls...I love you!

  

greek food is da bomb

Crosstown - You rock.  You're a little expensive, but you rock.  I got to my interview early, and blasted country music the whole time with very little traffic.  You're a little like "wow!!!!!" when I pass the now installed ramp to I-4, but Mandy driving doesn't distract as easily as Mandy in every other part of her life...

Interview today at the tax collector's office, coffee with my mama, dinner with my mama and a friend, and home late, dressed up and feeling very adult.  I looked very adult today, and I think I looked good...I think?  Borrowed a suit from my mama, sold myself a little, drank coffee in the suit, had dinner in the suit...was thinking "I feel good in this suit", until I got home and remembered I could change into my shorts and Red Hot Chili Peppers tee-shirt.  And not dress shoes.  

Romano's Greek and Italian Restaurant - good as ever.  A great night with my mama and a friend, laughed, and ate some great food.

Stuck up for myself a little tonight, and will be sleeping in a little tomorrow, so drinking some of the wine that my mama gave me.  Some?  Okay, all

bees or hornets?

Watched football almost all day...Go Bucs!!!!!!  Watched Alabama lose last night, so today's Bucs win made me happy.  :)  This is actually a great time of year for me...Alabama football, Bucs football, Rays baseball, AND the Lightning are in training camp.  Happy B-Town girl  :)

Beef roast and sauteed cabbage for supper...then to 7-11 because we ran out of milk.

Dear 7-11 cashier - I haven't seen you before, I think you're new.  You seem very friendly as I watch you with the maybe he is maybe he isn't underage guy buying beer.  Playfully asking him to take his sunglasses off, asking if he's 21 years old but not asking for ID...it was all cute and everything, but kind of illegal.  You might want to be careful about that.  And when I got closer and realized you're older than me...well, you might want to be careful about that.  Sincerely - Me

Back home before Brendan and his friends headed back to campus...apparently there's a beehive or hornet's nest or something in the garage and these three young, strong, athletic kids wanted ME to open the garage.  Fine, but then I'm running.  And I did.  Love peace and chicken grease y'all, hope you're good...I think they survived, although I did run back inside.  Guess I'll find out tomorrow morning.

The Emmys are on tonight, and I have to say I'm not that interested.  I watched Andy Samberg's opening monologue and think I'll now change the channel.  Laundry going...and you guessed it, someone needs to wash the dishes.

roll tide roll!!!!!!!!!!!!

Was supposed to get up early & walk with my bestie...overslept and stayed in bed with a small pity party.  Shook that shit off, applied for jobs, shaved my legs, and went to the grocery store to get stuff for requested lunch of chili dogs.  Ran into my bestie...got hugs from my bestie.  :)

Made lunch for the kids (ours plus two...Brendan is home for the weekend with two friends...anyway, made like 16 hot dogs and there's like 2 left.)  And these kids eat and eat and you don't see where it goes...remember eating like that? Chili dogs made, worked on some laundry, took a nap, more errands, and dinner made for a house full of teenagers that have like five stomachs each.  Chicken and yellow rice and black beans made for the same amount of appetites as lunch...mine plus two.  I better make a plate or I won't get any.

Stomach bug invasion seems to be going away...thank goodness.  Chili dogs was a test.  Everyone has passed so far.

Burned my shin on the oven.  Yes, I did.  I am the best at absurd injuries, and curtsied as soon as it happened.  Chicken and yellow rice is the bomdiggaty, so Mandy - 1, oven - 0.

College football on...tolerating the South Carolina game until the Alabama game comes on...Roll Tide Roll, y'all!!!!!!!!!!!!

stomach aches

Day three of the stomach bug invasion at Mandy's Castle...for me, David, and Chloe, I made grits this morning (easy to keep down), ginger ale, soup and eggs for lunch (easy to keep down...I thought so, too).  Went with ginger ale and sandwiches for dinner.  No tomato, no mustard, no nothing spicy or that can possibly upset a stomach.  We'll see.

Managed to run some errands, and came home to a surprise in my mailbox...a beautiful card with a gift from a friend.  Sometimes knowing that your family and friends are thinking about you makes you smile.  Then I got a silly text from my cousin, Bobby.  I know I'm his favorite cousin.  :) Silliest texts ever from another friend...the kind that my mom would scold me for sharing if I shared them.  Still laughing out loud. Got a text from another friend...she gave me a gift today that is so kind and generous that I can't say thank you enough.  Then a phone call from a friend miles away...  Between my mom, my sissy, my sisters by heart, and my friends, I'm a lucky girl.

Also got another interview for next week - this one with the school district!  That would be uber cool.  :)

Sat outside for a little while to enjoy the not 100 degree weather, and realized I think the strangest things.  I was thinking, when I got my hair cut, that's the ultimate go to spot for a criminal looking to plant DNA.  When I get my eyebrows waxed, hair cut...a criminal could go through the trash and plant all sorts of evidence.  I think the strangest things.  I think things about people I see when I'm people watching...absurd things.  I have a monstrous imagination...it's amazing to me that I haven't wandered off somewhere.  This morning, I think the cat was mad.  Actually mad about nothing.  I could've been imagining it, but I could see disgust in his eyes...at nothing.  Just to be mad.  I felt sad about it...tried to pet him and tell him I love him, but he bit me and wanted to fight.  I tried to think of what he could be mad at.  I wonder if he has bad dreams, like humans do.  But I didn't feel like fighting him, so I put him down and left him alone...I think he likes that a lot.  :)

Laundry going, sandwiches made, toilets ready...pepto in the cabinet, and ginger ale in the fridge.  FSU game is starting, so y'all have a good night  :)

what did i make for supper?

Since I was asked for a divorce, and there is no income in the house, I applied, for the first time in my life, for Medicaid in July.  I made a doctor appointment for Chloe for a checkup back in July, and it was for today.  We went to the "free clinic" for the first time today.  I have to say, I went in feeling like a horrible adult.  Like, why am I having to walk in here.  I've been looking for a job for over a month now, and really don't want to be on assistance programs, but don't have a choice right now.  And explaining to Chloe why we can't go to our regular pediatrician, who we've been going to for about 17 years.  Walked in with my head high, got checked in, and had the checkup.

I have to tell you, this was one of the friendliest, most professional clinics I've ever been to...the doctor and nurses care, and made us feel at ease and smile.  The wait is long to get an appointment, and they're probably understaffed and running on very limited resources, but I was impressed.  I do want to get a job with benefits so we can go back to our regular pediatrician, and we've paid into these programs our whole adult lives, so I know that we're using them the way they're intended, and I want to give a shout out of sorts to the clinic, and to all taxpayers.  Thank you for keeping my family healthy, and as soon as I can stop using these services, I will.  And will be glad to pay into them...don't get me wrong, I don't want to be overtaxed, but these programs are there for a reason.  If it weren't for them, we'd have no food and no medical care.  And if it weren't for family and friends, we'd have no roof over our heads.  Thank you...all of you.

Roasted chicken and potatoes for dinner...I know you want to know.  :)  Yes, I forgot to make a vegetable.  Give me my super mom trophy...  *curtsies*  Enough leftover chicken that I think I may make some chicken salad.  Unless the cat gets on the counter again and ruins it before it cools off enough that I can put it away.  He ruined the leftover stuffed clams.  He really is kind of a jerk.

Talked to my bestie today and we're going to hit the trails again starting this weekend.  I CAN'T wait for that!  Unless Luke Bryan tries to bring his temper tantrums to B-Town.  I'm ready to be strong and healthy...sometimes I feel like I have no idea how I'm hanging on, and other times I'm like, "And what?"  Rockstar.  Wonder Woman.  Don't tug on my cape.  I think I get it from my mama.  :)

There's t.v. to be watched and laundry to be done, so have a good night, y'all  :)

gettin' my hair did

I felt displaced most of the day today.  Tired, lost, stressed...took a lot of energy to shake shake shake it off.  (If you're singing T Swift now, you're welcome).

Got meatballs and red sauce going in the crockpot, and got to work being a grownup.  

Surprise phone interview - exciting!  Nothing like keeping me on my toes to make sure I can talk positively about myself...it's been so long since I've interviewed, that the last couple of interviews have felt strange...the whole "why are you great?" question...um, because I'm freaking cool?  Because I love my family, friends, writing, horses, music, am kind, would give just about anybody just about anything, because I have a strong work ethic...twelve years of being a stay-at-home mom, it's tempting to stick to mom things, but I know I have to let them know that I'm a rockstar.  I felt good about today's phone interview...and whether I get it or not, it was great for me.  :)

After school pickups, I went to the Plant City High School Cosmetology School tonight for color and cut...because I need it, because it's affordable, and because a friend of mine's niece is in school there and working on hours. I'm now going to let you know a few reasons why tonight was priceless for me.

One, the young woman who is studying cosmetology, and who did my hair, is a really cool person.  After talking for a couple of hours with her (you know how it is, girls) about friendship, goals, and happiness, I felt more aware that I need to cut my oldest daughter (about her age) some slack.  I need to remember a little more how difficult it really is to be their age...to not know and not be sure what you want to do.  And not want to go into debt figuring it out "in the box".   

Two, I got to watch a room full of young adults figuring out something that they're passionate about.  Will they stick with it forever?  Who knows.  They're happy right now figuring it out, though...and having fun.  They cheered each other on, laughed, encouraged each other...made me think about when I was 20'ish and smile.  Keep it simple and keep it real, guys.  Looks good on you.

Three, I was fascinated watching them work on mannequin heads.  

Four, I left feeling confident...and not just because I got my hair done.  Because I watched a room full of young adults thriving with each other...not one was against another.  No competition - all about making each other feel awesome.  

Thank you, Horne, for sending me to the Itty Bitty...

don't tug on my cape

Another interview this morning...lack of "nice" clothes...the struggle is real.  #WhiteGirl Problems
Wore same black dress as last interview, though I did have time to go by my mom's for a cup of coffee before the interview, and she had a black slip I could borrow.  *Whew*

Interview was good.  Even if I don't get it, it was good experience, and, again, I had to say all kinds of of good things about myself.  :)  Strangest question he asked was "What's your dream car?"  I said, "Chevy Silverado King Cab, black or red"...he asked, "4x4?", I said, "Yes".  And we both smiled.  Of course.

A little more coffee with my mom, hugs on Rachel, then to the high school to see why David wasn't feeling well...signed him out, stomachache & low fever.  Home, lunch, laundry.

Picked up Chloe et al, then home to start dinner.  Shrimp stir-fry and stuffed clams...yummmmm.......helped Rachel with her resume, went by my sissy's, then home.  In some ways feeling alone, in other ways feeling like Wonder Woman.  With cups for gold bracelets and plastic headband for the gold headband...total outfit is coming together, some pieces may seem laughable, but don't tug on my cape.

#BucsNation

Up and at 'em at the crack of like 11:00 a.m.'ish.  I didn't go to bed until late...couldn't sleep.  Had a great time with some old friends last night, was home pretty early, but couldn't sleep.  Coffee is as good at 11 something as it is at 6:30 a.m.  

Got beef stew going in the crockpot, as football would be on all day.  Looked at a possible rental house and it's a beautiful house.  Then to pick up Chloe from her crazy cousin sleepover...then home to work on laundry and watch football.  The Bucs lost.  The season just started, though, so it's all cool...the Rays lost, too, though, and USF lost yesterday, so I blame the Unicorn.

Then to Winn-Dixie, where I bumped into a true kanga...we bounced around the store for awhile, created shenanigans that would've gotten us kicked out if we weren't so cute, then home to finish dinner.  I've always known I can have that much fun in a grocery store, and I did today.  And Melissa, your hair looks too cute!!!!!!

And to anybody boo'ing the Bucs that are Bucs fans - shut up.  Just stop.  You're not a true fan if you boo them, and need to leave the stadium.  I get that Tampa is a town with a lot of people that are "transplants"...they move here from other places. I get it.  It's been like that all my life...and now I say, shut up.  Stop.  If you're wearing a Bucs shirt, don't boo.  If you're only rooting for the other team, I get that...root for your team.  If you're wearing Bucs gear, don't boo.  Also, the season just started.  You will never find me not rooting for my Bucs.  Win or lose.  That's what true fans do.

Beef stew is great...ice cream for dessert...I love when I buy a treat like ice cream and don't tell anybody.  They go looking for something and are so excited.  :)  And I look like a heroine, so........

Princess is fed, Uno is trying to destroy my desk...we're out of apple juice, but do have sweet tea. Have a good night, y'all

panties (made ya' look)

Today is one of those days that tries to make you feel like you don't want to smile.  Not the day's fault, just stuff lines up and you really gotta pull your big girl panties up.  It really is a good thing I wear panties.

I smiled all day, even though I didn't totally mean it...cramps, stress, and me working very hard at remembering that I can get through anything.  Especially on a day that's the anniversary of the terrorist attacks in New York, Washington, D.C., and Pennsylvania.  Cramps and stress?  Nothing compared to what some people are going through.  Still, though, when things are going on in your life that are stressful, it's hard not to make those the center of your feelings, worry, thoughts.  I worked hard today.  

Late afternoon I got a phone call from one of David's teachers...I missed the call, so when I listened to the voice mail, I wasn't sure what it would be about.  He was calling to let me know that David is doing very well in his class, is very polite, and is a great kid.  Didn't have to force that smile.  Then an insurance company called me that saw my resume on indeed.com, and left a message.  Listened to that message - they want an interview.  Didn't have to force that smile.  And another friend emailed me about a job fair coming up.  Didn't have to force that smile.  Additionally, I got a fantastic new lip gloss from a friend yesterday.  I'm glad I smiled even when I didn't totally feel like it today, because it made the smiles that came for real even bigger.  

Roasted chicken, rice, and creamed spinach for dinner...and now strawberry muffins thanks to Chloe.  Princess walked, Uno hiding, dinner eaten, muffins in oven...I'm smiling.

that's what he said...

I haven't gotten up and put makeup on so much in I don't know how long...up looking, job fairing, and testing all day almost every day for weeks.  The advantage?  I have to make myself look nicer than I normally do...the disadvantage?  I see all the flaws I wish I had hundreds of dollars to improve...really feeling some professional hair color, to finish my dental work, to get my eyebrows waxed, to get a pedicure, and to lose some weight right now.  The advantage is that I have to make myself look nicer, so I feel pretty  :)

Testing I did today is for a county position and testing was at the County Center downtown.  I arrived early, got into the testing room, got to a work station, and realized that medication does sometimes make a difference.  I recently took myself off of an ADD medication because of some side effects...I noticed today that after I got my seat, and got settled, I started looking out of the window in the classroom , and saw Tampa Bay...lost track of where I was for a second because I love where I'm from so much...I can't just look at something, either, and look away  No, I look out at Tampa Bay, facing south from the classroom, out the window at our beautiful bay...the fringe of downtown buildings to the west, and Davis Island to the east.  And I remember meeting my parents for lunch for decades when they worked dowtown...I remember going to my mom's and then my dad's retirement parties...I remember March of Dimes walks down Bayshore Boulevard with my mom and dad, sister, and cousins and family friends...I remember adoption anniversaries for decades at The Colonnade...I remember Ballast Point Park, which isn't too far...I remember going to Gasparilla as children with mom and dad...then I glance to the right and boom there's a stranger...that's right, I'm here to take a test.  Don't get me wrong, as soon as I get going on a task, I'm fine...it's the sitting and waiting...and when you're born and bred and still live in paradise, well.......  :)

After a full day of looking, job fairing, and testing, I went by my mom's to drop something off, and found a house full of Red Hatters, a massage therapist, wine, and snacks...and the Red Hatters getting ready to get in the spool...I wanna be like my mama when I grow up.  :)  Exchanged "that's what he said" jokes with one of them...she's gotten pretty good at them!  Then headed home to finish bratwurst loaded stew...I'll say YUM.  

Little moments made things count for me today...they added up and made me feel good, strong, and more than capable!  The dressing up, the makeup, the good posture walking in to each job opportunity...the reflections out of the window of the County Center, the hugs and love from my mom's girlfriends, the genuine loving of each other that they do, and beautiful example of friendship that they set.  Today was a great day, y'all  

kmart is superior

Our WalMart closed months ago under strange circumstances..."plumbing", they said.  Two other WalMarts in the USA closed the same day for the same reason.  There were, of course, all kinds of conspiracy theories.  They recently announced that they're opening again, soon...probably this month or next month.  Of course.  In time for Christmas.

As much as I loathe WalMart, the convenience is real, and the prices are good, so it's been strange to not be able to go up there.  I've been going to KMart, which has been around since I can remember, and it's closer than Target.  And Target is at the mall, and if you know B-Town, you know that anything by the mall is somewhere I'd rather not drive. So, I went to KMart today, for the millioneth time since WalMart closed.  As expected, every KMart shopping experience is superior to a WalMart shopping experience.

Had a little change from my shopping trip to KMart, so got the kids Wendy's for dinner and myself a big lemonade for a treat, then laundry and homework with Chloe.  No school tomorrow, so don't hate - we can do homework on a Sunday night late if we want to.  All these states & capitals...remember when Florida was "Fla"?  I know, it's been "FL" for years, but I remember when it was "Fla" for postal mail...and capitals?  Google, thank you!

Watched a great movie today - "Saint Vincent".  If you get a chance, watch it.  One of the best films I've seen with Bill Murray in it, and I loved it.  Loved it.  If you get a chance, watch it.  With all the darkness in the world, give this one a chance.

"Big Brother 17" has proven itself to be horrible, so I'll be checking out anything else tonight.  Good night, y'all

growing

One of my friends that I've had since I was 12 years old, friends for 29 years (shhhhhh.....), started a community garden a few years ago, and I've been meaning to get up there and check it out for a few years.  I finally did today.

Gardening has never been my thing...I don't know what I'm doing, I tend to not keep things alive...but I thought, what the heck.  This is a cleanup project right now, I'm in.  She assured me it would be wonderful for the soul.  I arrived, she wasn't there yet.  But I got a text that her friend was there and to find her...so I did.  My friend go there a little later...and off we went.  I did think to bring a bottle of water (NOT ENOUGH AT ALL), sunglasses and a hat...three hours later, we were all wiped, and called it a day.  If you've ever lived in west central Florida, you know what I'm talking about.  I know it's September...it's cooling off in other states...but it's still like 103 degrees here mid-day.  Thank you, Moose Lodge, for the water.  And cold washcloths.  And tolerating this notagreenthumb.

Sweat, smiled, worked, and laughed more than I have in awhile while digging my hands into dirt and watching living things come up out of the mess I was making, to run around in circles (like I do mentally daily), then run back into the dirt.  I pitied them a little...I knew my gloved hand would likely yank them back up with weeds and soil...I let some go.  I'm being honest.

When we called it a day, I smelled like a garden with no bloom...sweat, sweat, hydration, and sweat.  And I didn't care.  Went to my mama's to hug my mama, ran errands, made dinner - chicken alfredo and pasta.  Yes, I went to the grocery store.  I know you're wondering what we had for dinner.  :) Surprise visit from my college son, his friend, and his cousins...I'm glad I made as much chicken alfredo as I did.

Something will grow where I worked today.....and that makes me feel good.  Thank you for inviting me to see you in the garden, friend

i need a black slip

I had an interview today!  I felt like such a grown up...until I realized I had to shave my legs.  Sigh.  Okay, I shaved.  Then I went to my closet - I don't have many "nice" clothes.  And I need to work out.  Ugh.  And color my hair.  Ugh.  And work out.  Okay, a few outfits tried on, settled on black dress.  Then to look for black flats...what's that?  I don't have any?  That's right...I have flip flops, boots, dress boots, and sneakers.  And slippers.  Frick.  Thank goodness Chloe has a pair of wedges that are a little small for me, that I was clearly going to wear today.

Dressed, hair done as best as I can (my style is defined as "I wasn't expecting to get out of the car", so I did the best I could), makeup on...I wondered if I needed a slip.  For those of you under 40, a slip is a woman's undergarment worn beneath a dress or skirt to help it hang smoothly and to prevent chafing of the skin from coarse fabrics such as wool.  Slips are also worn for warmth, and to protect fine fabrics from  perspiration.  A full slip hangs from the shoulders, usually by means of narrow straps, and extends from the breast to the fashionable skirtlength.  A half slip hangs from the waist.  It may also be called a waist slip or more rarely a petticoat.  (Thank you, Wikipedia).  I was looking for a half slip.  No slip in sight...again, I'm a teeshirt and jeans with boots or flip flops girl...guess I don't need one.

Interviewed, did my best, and left feeling good about myself, except for my feet which are still yelling at me.  Whether I get the job or not, I did it!  I went in, said all kinds of great things about myself, and got experience!  In fact, it makes me think that we should have to go on interviews more often than we do - if only to say good things about ourselves.  Talk about a little more confidence for me!

Sandwiches for dinner...kids got the dog walked before the rain comes...my mama on her way  back from her girls' weekend...figuring out what's normal for me...life is GOOD.  It is, family and friends.  I'm scared, I'm sad, but I'm also smiling and trying and putting one foot in front of the other.  Positive steps forward.  If I take a step back here and there, or cry a little, cut me some slack...I'm trying my hardest.  

and what?

I need to go grocery shopping.  There's like half a glass of milk, a few Powerades, three hot dogs, three sticks of butter (yes, real butter...margarine is disgusting), strawberry jelly, two Miller Lites, some chocolate syrup, eggs, and pickled okra in the fridge...and condiments.  Except for mustard.  I'm out of mustard.  That's unacceptable.  I thawed a couple of packs of bratwurst yesterday, so tonight was sauteed bratwurst, mac n' cheese (there is food in the pantry), and corn and hominy (again, food in the pantry).  The pantry is almost as pitiful...I need to go to the grocery store.  Tomorrow.

Dinner was great, though.  When I'm broke and making shit stretch, these kinds of nights make me smile and laugh.  I feel kind of resourceful.  Using what I have, coupons, and sales much like Neanderthal women hunted alongside the Neanderthal men, and collected berries, vegetables, and fruits to feed their families and friends.  I know, it's different - my food came from Winn-Dixie, but still.  I feel very "AND WHAT?"

Felt good today...and it feels good to feel good.  Not perfect, not great, not incredible, but good.  Small steps make us appreciate the journey more, and help us remember to watch our step.  I think.  Either way, small steps work for me.  I got a lot done job searching, and made a great dinner with limited hunting, berries, vegetables, and fruits.  

AND WHAT?

"dis"

"Dis" - 

1. a Latin prefix meaning “apart,” “asunder,” “away,” “utterly,” or having a privative, negative, or reversing force (see de-, un-^2. ); used freely, especially with these latter senses, as an English formative: disability; disaffirm; disbar; disbelief; discontent; dishearten; dislike; disown. Also, di-.

So, can displaced things grow?  I Googled this question out of curiosity.

One of the first things that came up was this.  And because we are nature, I clicked...

https://www.nwf.org/Wildlife/Wildlife-Conservation/Disturbance.aspx

"Healthy ecosystems have an amazing ability to bounce back from a disturbance. Sometimes the ecosystem will go back to its former structure, with the same plant and animal species. Other times, the disturbance will create something new by allowing new species to move in. Only time will determine the effects of each disturbance. It could take days or decades, but eventually, the ecosystem will recover. "

Okay, so it says "bounce", so I keep reading.  AND it insinuates that things that are displaced will continue to grow.  And it's honest.  So I'm going with this click...

So maybe "dis" shouldn't have a negative meaning...I'm taking that shit back.  (Watch "Clerks 2".  I don't agree with what he was taking back, but I'm taking "dis" back).