no kleenex

Today was the 5th grade celebration for our youngest son.  I had fun, delivering the pizzas, helping serve food, watching the kids dance.  As the slideshow started, I sat down, ready to enjoy the pictures and smile.  I did smile and enjoy the pictures.  But in the few moments of quiet during the slideshow, I became overwhelmed with emotion.  Pride, happiness, joy...and the feeling that so much has happened in the last couple of years, and God I hope I'm doing this right.  So much loss, but so much gain...I hope I'm helping grow my children into kind, successful, loving people.  We've experienced so much in the last couple of years.  I lost my dad, lost my home, almost lost my marriage, had a miscarriage...it all hit me at once.  Life kept right on walking, running sometimes, and I pray that along the way I showed my children a strong, loving woman.  I know I showed weakness at times, and sometimes I dwell on that, but I try to trust in my strength, trust in God, embrace the blessings He's given me, and enjoy this journey...and focus on strength.  I watched my son enjoying his friends, I danced, I laughed...I did all of these things today.  Thank you, God.  Thank you.