“Some roses grow through concrete. Remember that.” - Brandi L. Bates, Red Flags

I now have the fourteen supply lists from the high school and middle school and can shop...with three days until school starts.  I don't want to show my bitch face, because a few years ago there were four schools involved...with Rachel and Brendan out of high school, school shopping has changed some...what hasn't changed, though, is the very last minute handing out of supply lists.  And, really, tax free in Florida week?  You couldn't wait until NOW?  I think Office Depot will be happy to see me this weekend.

Up early and allowed negativity and being frightened to affect my mood.  On the list for tomorrow - don't do that.  Wake up and smile.  I always am telling somebody "there's always something to smile about".  I need to listen to myself a little more, I think.

More applications, worry, sweating, thinking, overthinking, crying...I was busy today.

And I think I've had the ID Channel on all day.  Well, besides getting caught up on "Big Brother".  ID Channel - you're the bombdiggaty.  I don't care that people look at me sideways for watching it, binging on it, being kind of fascinated by it...and "Big Brother"...well, please get better.  This season is chalking up to be a big fucking waste of my time...if somebody doesn't get Vanessa and Austwins out soon...ugh.  Who am I kidding?  I'll keep watching.  But if Vanessa wins...ugh.  James' pranks make for fun, and Johnny Mack, well he's why I watch.

Everybody grab your own dinner night...mommy's not cooking.  Leftovers, frozen stuff, whatever you can find.  So Rachel and Brendan are out - being all grown-uppy and everything...doing their thang...David and Chloe fed.  I got hungry a few minutes ago and realized I didn't eat.  Frozen chicken strips - in the oven.  Don't look at me like that...you've done it.  I would've eaten trail mix, but when I buy it, it's gone in like four days...just like this time.  And I don't get any.

It's after 10:00 p.m. and I'm about to eat chicken strips...and work on my PartyLite show (let me know if you want to order anything!) and my Younique show (let me know if you want to order anything!).  I really want this free stuff.....