learning about me

I'm learning more about myself the last few days.  Some I like & some I don't like as much.  I guess that's where we make ourselves better or work on ourselves?  Being aware of where you know you can be better?

I've been trying for awhile to be somebody I can like & love and I'm doing a lot better at it, but I still find places I can be better...it's hard not to see that as a good thing instead of a failure.  Sometimes I feel alone and other times I know I have lots of love around me & for me.  I know that more than I feel alone, but the times I feel alone stink & want to be louder than what I know.  It's work every day to remind myself I'm worth liking myself.  It shouldn't be...why do I have to work so hard at liking myself?  I'm doing better, and I'm proud of myself...it's one of those questions that I ask...why didn't I like myself to start with?

There's my brain at the moment.  And now I'll lighten it a little and say my other daughter is home!!!!!!!!!  Kirsten came over with Jen, and Kirsten, Jen, Rachel, my mama, my sissy, my sister by heart, & I had brunch and got caught up.  So cool to see her...so glad to see her!!!!!!!!  I can't believe they're grownups...what?????  :)

Football on since 4:00 p.m.  Bucs aren't in it so I yawned and turned on the game...  :)  Just joking...I love to watch good football  I love it more when the Bucs are in it.....next year  :)  Ham and butter beans for dinner...I think the kids may be hammed out since Christmas but it was on sale so..........  :)  My boyfriend's dad came and helped me set up my dryer & I'm doing laundry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I didn't think I'd ever be so excited to be doing laundry.  :)

In true west central Florida style, it went from 89 degrees to almost 50 degrees today & is cold tonight.  And will be all week.  If you know me you know I'm not jumping up and down about that.  We have blankets and socks...we'll be okay  :)  This Florida girl is ready for some beach time with her bestie...