I have a shit ton of cousins. Thank goodness. Don't know what I'd do without them. As we've grown up, our love for each other has gotten stronger, want to spend time together more, and need for each other amazing. I can only credit this to our parents' generation & grandparents' generation. That love of family, that sense of being there always, that knowing that you can count on your family, that deep rooted love, it is absolutely there. Side note - I also have a shit ton of aunts and uncles, second cousins, third cousins, first cousins once removed...this is good. They are like forever friends.
Our family has experienced a lot of loss in the last three and half years. We all work hard at seeing each other for fun, throughout the year, but I gotta say, seeing family at funerals isn't fun. This was another particularly hard week, and my heart is with my cousins and their children and siblings right now. Man, who knew growing old involved losing things and people we love? We understand early that life involves death, but it isn't easy. Ever. It stinks.
I have two aunts, one on my mom's side and one on my dad's side, both fighting cancer right now. That stinks. It hurts to watch people you love struggling with something so ugly. I have another cousin whose mom just had surgery...prayers that way. It seems we're always updating each other on family health...what the heck? Weren't we just kids?
I had a friend tell me that when we're in our twenties, we "get"...we get married, we have kids, we get a job, we get a house...then we get a little older and we "lose". We lose parents, we lose jobs, we lose houses. Who knew. Certainly changes perspective on things.
Yes, mom, I know you tried to tell me...listen, I was a teenager and didn't know you knew everything.
This has been one of those weeks for me with a lot of reflection...love hard, friends.
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