I had an off day Tuesday...my mind was all over...went to my mama's for coffee, which always helps, and then found myself laying in the grass at Sadie Park with coffee by myself. I wish I'd brought my journal. I went to Sadie Park for a few reasons...one, it's close to my mama's...two, it's a nice park...three, I spent a lot of my childhood and teenage years there, even early adulthood, and lots of good and bad have happened there. I guess I thought, wouldn't it be good to a place where there was both? I laid in the grass, in the sun, with coffee by myself. I thought about all the great times there...and the painful times. How life throws things at us whether we're ready or not...good and not good. I thought about where I am, who I am, and what I offer the world. I thought about painful times. Why do we damage each other? I didn't think about that too much, though, and it was a good 45 minute quiet in the sun. You know I love the sun. Those pieces of old me that I keep shedding - they shed easiest in the sun. And I leave them there.
And today...errands, carline, grocery shopping... I'm happy. I'm really happy.
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